Walking down the memory lane...

Today I thought of my past.. those two years of my life. When i look back at those days.. The day that i was in love. In love with a girl from my class...
She was my best friend. All those time we spent, those jokes, those fights and quarrels, those misunderstandings and even happy moments that we shared. We did have our time. We made it through despite the teachers scolding and parents pressurizing and i must say it is nice to have someone you really care by your side to take care of you. And it seemed it'd never be over.. Never. I'd come home late in the evenings... After college we'd stay at the bus stop and chat. We walked.. Like alot.. Long distances.. It was awesome!!
My grades were bad, i had so much to frown for.. So much to complain about my life.. So much within me that i wasn't happy about. But, i was probably the most happiest person in the college.
With a big smile on my face, wearing a partially ironed uniform i'd go to the college.. N there she'd be waiting for me.. Complaining how i always came late and how i always kept her waiting but she'd be happy to see me all the same.. I remember that place we'd go after college.. That little sweet store where we'd eat samosas with 'red chutney' that was my favorite.
And i remember that tearful night when the teacher decided to change my section. I remember each of those extranerous details. And it seems almost everything reminds me of her.. Every place.. Every food.. Every.. Every step.
I dunno why i am writing this in a public site. I wonder why?? I know this makes me so vunerable.. I may seem untrustworthy to other people.. Untrustworthy because i was in love before..
But tell me who doesn't have a past?? There are rare cases that a person of my age haven't fallen for anyone so far. And i am proud to tell that i once loved someone.. Loved someone so much.. Truely, deeply, madly..
But it didn't work.. And as i had another choice.. The painful, hard and toughest decision to make.. We parted. It wasn't easy.. But it had to be so.. So we went our ways.. With own stories to tell.. Seperated for a greater cause.. For the good of both.
And i won't put up a lame excuse that she was one of my best friends or we were just 'good friends' or whatever. Yes! I loved her! I truely loved her!! There's nothing i can do about that can i??
Anyway now its over and its so funny that we aren't even friends now. Maybe that sort of things work only in the movies. And here i am stranded again.. But life goes on doesn't it?? Nothing can stop time.. It just flies by.. Leaving just memories..
~Aideu~

A heartfelt condolence to Girija Prasad Koirala one of the most powerful politician so far..

I was on my way to meet a friend of mine.. Had an exam coming the day after.. But it was important to meet her. As i was on my way my cell rang.. It was my friend from NSC.. The students' union of Nepali Congress.. Then he told me that Girija Prasad Koirala was no more..
I remember two days back when the old man was seriously ill.. But somehow the doctors saved him.. All those slines, those pipes, and those crazy looking medical gadgets beeping by his side.. The doctors had told the media he was 'out of danger'.. N in those tea shops i heard people rumbling about how that 'old man' didn't die. How he still lived.. N it suprised me to see how sad they were..
How sad they were that the national hero.. A freedom fighter.. A true leader.. A person with an idea.. A person with a vision was still with us. Didn't they know that he played an important role in the peace process?? Were they unaware that he was the one fighting for democracy when most of them were probably hiding from the government.. Enjoying what little 'rights' the then goverment gave them.. How ungrateful can humans be??
How ungrateful.. How agonizing.. How disgusting.
His death is an uncompareable loss to the nation.. He was the true guardian.. Although his age, body was not in tune to his thoughts.. Although he was that old.. He still fought for freedom.. He fought for the people. Maybe his decisions weren't always right.. Maybe he did some grave mistakes.. But everyone does mistakes. Can few mistakes overshadow great deeds of any person??
Girija Prasad Koirala was continuously involved in politics for 70 years.. N its not a joke to dedicate ones life for other people.. To fight for freedom of other..
But what i saw at the funeral ceremony shocked me.. It was moreover like a marriage ceremony than a funeral.. All those whistles, cheers, smile on the faces of the politicians.. What do they expect to do without Girija babu.. Do they think they'll last long on the government?? Do they think they can do it??
It made me belive that politics is infact a cruel game.. A cruel game indeed with no mercy and a race for the chair. A bloody race.. N nothing else.

Despite of everything else.. May his soul rest in peace.. He's fought for all of his life.. He must be tired.. Let him rest.. He'll never be disturbed..
May his dreams be fulfilled..
N may the nation prosper.
Jai Nepal!!

Integration of the army

I don't think it would be wise to integrate the PLA along with the Nepalese Army. The Nepalese Army (NA) has been protecting the sovernity and dignity of the country and on the other hand the PLA or the 'maoists' army' has been destroyig infrastructures, killing people, attacking the NA itself and devastating the nation.
The question is how can two different poles be brought together?? Addressing the mass of people on april 6th, 2009 the then prime minister and head of the maoists Puspa Kamal Dahal (Prachanda) said that if the PLA weren't integrated to the nepalese army then the country would lead to devastation and destruction. But, what i belive is if the PLA are integrated in the army.. devastation is sure, it won't be good for both the country and its people. And i don't suppose we'll need to wait till 2012 for the world to end.. Because ours would end earlier than that..

The End

I could'nt belive it was over. The relationship whic everyone envyed.. But now it was all gone. Lost in the dark alley of pain, hatred and anger. Finally love had been beaten by all those worldly things..
I don't know how it was possible. I mean i still love her and maybe she does too.. but wow nothing was left. I still remember those nights i spent crying.. Hoping.. Praying that she might just return. But she never did.. N now she is not here. All i have left is my broken heart and those precious mements i shared with her.. Memories.. Memories are all that i have..
Yes, it hurts alot. But they say time is a healer, maybe i can overcome this pain.. I never saw it coming.. I was'nt prepared but now i am facing it and i know i must be brave. N ofcourse the world moves on.. N so should i. Although i am broken, strayed and lonely i should carry on.. What other option do i have??
But, i do hope.. I do wish.. I do pray.. That someday she'll come back. Back to my life again and like they do in fairy tales.. We'll live happily ever after..