Saturday, March 27, 2010

Walking down the memory lane...

Today I thought of my past.. those two years of my life. When i look back at those days.. The day that i was in love. In love with a girl from my class...
She was my best friend. All those time we spent, those jokes, those fights and quarrels, those misunderstandings and even happy moments that we shared. We did have our time. We made it through despite the teachers scolding and parents pressurizing and i must say it is nice to have someone you really care by your side to take care of you. And it seemed it'd never be over.. Never. I'd come home late in the evenings... After college we'd stay at the bus stop and chat. We walked.. Like alot.. Long distances.. It was awesome!!
My grades were bad, i had so much to frown for.. So much to complain about my life.. So much within me that i wasn't happy about. But, i was probably the most happiest person in the college.
With a big smile on my face, wearing a partially ironed uniform i'd go to the college.. N there she'd be waiting for me.. Complaining how i always came late and how i always kept her waiting but she'd be happy to see me all the same.. I remember that place we'd go after college.. That little sweet store where we'd eat samosas with 'red chutney' that was my favorite.
And i remember that tearful night when the teacher decided to change my section. I remember each of those extranerous details. And it seems almost everything reminds me of her.. Every place.. Every food.. Every.. Every step.
I dunno why i am writing this in a public site. I wonder why?? I know this makes me so vunerable.. I may seem untrustworthy to other people.. Untrustworthy because i was in love before..
But tell me who doesn't have a past?? There are rare cases that a person of my age haven't fallen for anyone so far. And i am proud to tell that i once loved someone.. Loved someone so much.. Truely, deeply, madly..
But it didn't work.. And as i had another choice.. The painful, hard and toughest decision to make.. We parted. It wasn't easy.. But it had to be so.. So we went our ways.. With own stories to tell.. Seperated for a greater cause.. For the good of both.
And i won't put up a lame excuse that she was one of my best friends or we were just 'good friends' or whatever. Yes! I loved her! I truely loved her!! There's nothing i can do about that can i??
Anyway now its over and its so funny that we aren't even friends now. Maybe that sort of things work only in the movies. And here i am stranded again.. But life goes on doesn't it?? Nothing can stop time.. It just flies by.. Leaving just memories..
~Aideu~

18 comments:

  1. frens can turn into love bt love can neva turn in fren again...rememba dis...deepa

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    1. :) what ever you say makes me smile..
      it reminds me of you.

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  2. but nicely written yaar..sabai yaad rai6 timlai ta....keep it up..deepa

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  3. It is nice to see there are still some people in this world who are atleast truthful.Nice people are rarely born and i am glad that have one of the nicest people as my friend.I can see and feel how true your love is through your writings.Sometimes things don't go as we expect or we want but this is life.You have to overcome the bitter past to have the beautiful future.So don't loose hope and think that God has planned something much better for you.All the best

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  4. Thanks for the comment dipa. I do remember most of them.. Ani 'keep it up'?? Ani you do belive in stupid hypothesises and generalization about people?? Remember humans are of intricate types.. They can never be generalized. One rule applicable for a person may not be applicable for another.. More over it may not be applicable for the same person on other circumstances..

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  5. Smrity. Thanks for the comment. Ani thanks for the luck too.. I hope it works.. N thanks for the praise too.. ;)
    Gosh! Today there's this Basic Electrical exam.. N here i am blogging!! Damn me. I gotta get back to mugging!! :)

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  6. losing a friend u love is a lot harder than it seems.... leaves a big hole in ur life.... a hole too small for any other person to see.... bt too big to be filled wid fake smiles an attempts to be happy....... life goes on... true!! bt it doesnt remain the same.... an the worst part is, u got no other choice but to move on...... an many a times yu ask urself if u really will be able to move on...... the answer's always a NO.... bt ur living it up anyway.... still widout her.... still wid dat big hole in ur chest buried underneath ur skin......... bt its not dat bad as well...... the memories never fail to bring a smile on ur face..... at least we're lucky enuf to know wat REAL love feels like..... we know how to love.... we know wat it feels like to be loved...... we're still better than those who have no idea wat falling for someone so blindly dat u dont care if u get hurt when u reach the ground, really feels like...........

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  7. Hey Arjan how did you know that it was me???This time i hadn't used smiley to...Ahh HTHC...thats COOl....Thanks :) My luck and praises are always with you..haha...Take care duffer...:)

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  8. "After college we'd stay at the bus stop and chat. We walked.. Like alot.. Long distances.. It was awesome!!"...no doubt...haha
    love is the only mistake(not mistake actually) we never learn frm....
    As the world says "time is the greatest healer"...

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  9. Well...that was something i wanted to know....so...how u now??? happy??? or not???

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  10. This 'anonymus' makes it hard to guess who the author is.. Although i can make blank guesses.. Umm.. Please write names. It'd be easier to reply.. :)

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  11. Oh dont pretend!! u know who this is!!! Reply...

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  12. I won't!! ;) not on public blogs anyway!! =p

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  13. Arjan,eith how many pple"After college u used to stay at the bus stop and chat and walk??Like alot.. Long distances??
    r u confused o wat???
    -deepa

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  14. i dont know if anyone has ever loved someone so much like i did. I love her deeply and hate her strongly. your post made me remember my first love.. but then there was second and on and on.. And I havent still been able to love someone as deeply.

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  15. he eh!! nice thought!! thanks for the post brother!

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