Today I thought of my past.. those two years of my life. When i look back at those days.. The day that i was in love. In love with a girl from my class...
She was my best friend. All those time we spent, those jokes, those fights and quarrels, those misunderstandings and even happy moments that we shared. We did have our time. We made it through despite the teachers scolding and parents pressurizing and i must say it is nice to have someone you really care by your side to take care of you. And it seemed it'd never be over.. Never. I'd come home late in the evenings... After college we'd stay at the bus stop and chat. We walked.. Like alot.. Long distances.. It was awesome!!
My grades were bad, i had so much to frown for.. So much to complain about my life.. So much within me that i wasn't happy about. But, i was probably the most happiest person in the college.
With a big smile on my face, wearing a partially ironed uniform i'd go to the college.. N there she'd be waiting for me.. Complaining how i always came late and how i always kept her waiting but she'd be happy to see me all the same.. I remember that place we'd go after college.. That little sweet store where we'd eat samosas with 'red chutney' that was my favorite.
And i remember that tearful night when the teacher decided to change my section. I remember each of those extranerous details. And it seems almost everything reminds me of her.. Every place.. Every food.. Every.. Every step.
I dunno why i am writing this in a public site. I wonder why?? I know this makes me so vunerable.. I may seem untrustworthy to other people.. Untrustworthy because i was in love before..
But tell me who doesn't have a past?? There are rare cases that a person of my age haven't fallen for anyone so far. And i am proud to tell that i once loved someone.. Loved someone so much.. Truely, deeply, madly..
But it didn't work.. And as i had another choice.. The painful, hard and toughest decision to make.. We parted. It wasn't easy.. But it had to be so.. So we went our ways.. With own stories to tell.. Seperated for a greater cause.. For the good of both.
And i won't put up a lame excuse that she was one of my best friends or we were just 'good friends' or whatever. Yes! I loved her! I truely loved her!! There's nothing i can do about that can i??
Anyway now its over and its so funny that we aren't even friends now. Maybe that sort of things work only in the movies. And here i am stranded again.. But life goes on doesn't it?? Nothing can stop time.. It just flies by.. Leaving just memories..
~Aideu~